Growing Up Is Hard To Do

My beautiful baby girl no longer gives open mouth kisses. She puckers up.

And forget holding my hand when she steps down from our front porch... she can do it all by herself with no help. 

I knew that watching the kids grow would be hard, especially with no plans of a third child in the works. I've been trying to let each moment, each milestone soak in as much as possible. Being home with the kids during the week has helped give me the opportunity to watch how much they grown and change each day.

I watch how much these little ones change and am in awe of how quickly they adjust to these new skills and techniques. I definitely don't react as fast!

I feel as if I need time to process it all. Make my mind realize how quickly things are changing and try and be "in the moment" as much as possible while I watch them grow and become these amazing little people.

In just a few months my oldest will be going to preschool and while it's just a few days a week (and right around the corner from our home) I don't know what I'm going to do without my little buddy during the day. I'm sure we will stay plenty busy, but after being with him day in and day out for this past year I know it'll feel a bit weird to not have him with us on our daily adventures.

Just this morning my daughter and I dropped him off with his great aunt and m ydaughter was beside herself with sadness because she couldn't go too. I just know the reaction will be similar as she watches her brother go off to school.

Donuts might have worked as a great distraction this morning but they can't be a daily thing.

And what will I do when both are in school? I'm sure I'll be able to find volunteer work, continue working at home part time, and keeping myself busy with activities, etc but the thought of them growing so quickly and heading off to school so soon is such  a weird thing to think about.

Maybe we should think of having another... Nah! That's be crazy.

8 comment(s) with love:

A Helicopter Mom said... Reply To This Comment

I feel the same way about my little ones growing up.

When my oldest daughter went to pre-school for the first time, I used to sit in the parking lot in my car and watch her play. Didn't use the "me" time very well, lol. :)

East9thStreet said... Reply To This Comment

My daughter is turning 3 in a few months and I keep wondering where the last 3 years went. When did she get so independent and how can I stop! I'm sure you'll find plenty of things to do...still for them. :)

Ann said... Reply To This Comment

The feeling of wanting to have another is very strong for a woman who absolutely loves mothering her children. Speaking from experience, I started working part time in the nursing unit where I could hold babies, teach new Mom's, etc. and then remember when I volunteered to care for our neighbor's infant/child? You just have to find other outlets or you will BE the show "18 and counting..."

Danielle Simmons said... Reply To This Comment

Hahaha! Oh my word, Ann. You have me cracking up. Yes, I think that's why I'm being pulled to doula work and lactation consulting. Being surrounded by birth and babies might help me realize just how hard it was when they were teeny. Thanks for the reminder!

Lori said... Reply To This Comment

My husband and I can totally relate. We wish we could slow down time so our little ones wouldn't grow so fast. I recall feeling the exact same way when our daughter started school, feeling like I was going to be lost, after having her with me day in and day out for years. It was an adjustment, but it got easier day by day, and it was nice to have one on one time with our son as well. xoxo

Mary @ The World Is A Book said... Reply To This Comment

Such precious pictures! My "baby" is turning 7 in July and it's hard to believe how time goes by so fast. You're lucky to be able to spend time with them at this stage in their lives. I've thought about a third child after he was 3 yrs old but then I remember how much easier it is to sleep through the night now. =)

Ghada said... Reply To This Comment

Growing up his hard to watch. My little girl is only 6 months and she has changed so much. Having another one would be

Views From the 'Ville said... Reply To This Comment

I feel the same way! Each milestone that we celebrate with Bubbles is a little bittersweet. So proud of her as she learns, develops and grows, but also a little sad that those things pass by so quickly!